Busy = Happy I love my life. There is really nothing new but I have been seeing things from a more glass half full kind of way. I am falling in love with physical therapy. I've been doing observation hours with an awesome PTA and it makes me realize that I've finally found "the job".
Adam's aunt and uncle came from Maine to visit. We had to have dinner in a church because of the large amount of people. Adam was at a debate tournament (of course) so I went alone with his family.
These are my niece's shoes, I want them...
It was my dad's birthday this week. Happy Birthday Dad!!
My puppy's a climber. This is his new way of getting closer to the rawhide bones.
Thank you all who have left comments, they have helped me see an outside perspective. Keep it coming, I love comments!!
So remember how toward the end of the movie Mean Girls, Lindsay Lohan's character talks about her life being full of a venom that has to be sucked out of the wound? That's how I feel about the last two years. My inability to produce a healthy baby has made me jealous, bitchy, and depressed. It has taken some major blows to a few friendships, my faith, and my marriage. I hate that I completely overreact and let my sensitivity overpower my brain.
So here is what I think, my dream of becoming a mother needs to be put on the back burner for a few years. I have so much to improve on before I become the great mother a baby deserves.
So here is where I'm going to put my focus...
Mental
Work really hard in school
Brush up on my French
Dust off my viola and start playing again
Physical
Train for the half marathon
Start incorporating intervals and Pilates into my workouts
Lose 10 lbs of fat
Gain 5 lbs of muscle so I can have hot arms like Jillian Michaels
Eat better, I've already talked about that
Get enough quality sleep
Drink more water
Spiritual
This is probably going to be the hardest, I want to go back to church (all of it)
Scripture Study
Prayer
Try not to slit my wrists when every lesson turns into a family is forever speech.
Convince my visiting teacher that I'm not scary.
Personal
Dress like Miranda Kerr
Dance everyday
Sing louder
Speak my mind when I need to
Read books that aren't required for school
Personal Training Studio here I come
Stop being so hard on myself
Be more organized
Social
Smile at strangers
Party on the weekends
Make more friends (you can never have too many)
Do more exciting things
Thank you all for your patience during my emotional freak out session. I think with time things will go back to being normal.
I feel like being a recluse for a while. Everyone one around me seems to get pregnant in a blink of an eye. I'm bitter and I have no idea what to do about it. I love my friends and I feel so happy for everyone, but I don't know how many more announcements/showers/blessings/Facebook statuses/blog posts/etc. I can take. Please offer your great wisdom and leave me a comment on how I can retain a social life without it ripping my heart out. Please help!!!
A few weeks back some of my friends and I planned a girls day. We were going to take fun pictures, go out to lunch, and talk. I was really excited because I since getting married my social live has slowly slide into the ICU. So to keep along story short, a sick baby and a "boyfriend" crashed our plans and I was left completely bailed on. I could have gone back to bed if it wasn't for the enormous Diet Mountain Dew. So I ate lunch by myself followed by a self photo shoot.
The boys finally came home and fell asleep then leaving me to watch Mystery Science Theater by myself. I didn't mind. All in all it turned out to be a really good day.
Here are my new fish CoCo (aka Conan) and Quasimodo. Now I just need to keep them alive.
Hey everyone. what is up? My life has gone from to chill to crazy busy. Going to a community college is interesting. I feel like the professors are trying to prove something. I'm also not used to being quizzed on the syllabus and getting lectured on how the teacher is not going to hound me for my homework. All in all I'm feeling super good about this change.
I think my hair ADD is over. I'm in love with my recent color. You will see more pics after this weekends photo shoot!! Speaking of hair, what is wrong with this fame hungry woman? At least she has taught us one thing, when you get a bad hair cut hair extensions do not help!!
Taking the "baby making" out of our lives has been a lot easier than I thought it would be. I think that being busy has had a lot to do with that. I've even managed to lose count of days. I'm starting to imagine life being just the two of us forever. Who knows what will happen in the future? I must say though that things aren't bad the way they are.
Bronda's annual party was success yet again, however it felt kind of weird having a white elephant gift exchange after my Christmas Tree had made it's journey to the farm where all the dogs and cats go when they get old. It's still pretty cool because we totally rocked the present scene.
We also got to see the boys eat the worst candy ever made...
