Thanksgiving 2009

Our Thanksgiving this year was good. I love seeing family however...
being in close encounters with so many people = great potential for getting sick
This whole weekend I've been battling an awesome fever, aching in every part of my body, and menstrual cramps to spice it all up. I haven't felt this horrible in a long time.

Before I got sick we had fun...

Happy Thanksgiving.

Since I'm chillin at the in-laws and my husband has ditched me again for a video game, I want to take a second to express what I am grateful this year.

I am so thankful that my life hasn't been very easy. I feel like it has made me humble and more sensitive to others who are in need.

I am grateful to have a warm place to live and enough to eat.

I feel so blessed to have Adam in my life. He is my best friend who puts up with my crazy self and has no regrets.

I am thankful for the opportunity to get an education.

I am grateful for,(like always) my friends and family

and for the armed forces defending our wonderful nation.

I'm blessed with an adorable puppy who can always make me smile.

Most of all I am thankful for my savior Jesus Christ and the sacrafice he has made for all of us.

I hope you have a wonderful Thanksgiving.

Things are looking up

One of the many downsides of being a woman is that there are days you hate the world and the next day you love the world. I'm sure there is some scientific evidence somewhere that can link it to your hair's recent level of rebellion.
Today's a good day. I made my hair look a little more like mine by adding highlights, I did just as well on my math test as I did when I used to study for it, we talked about the male reproduction system in anatomy, we had friends over for a bbq, and I think I'm finally getting over my baby envy. I guess I take for granted the perks of not having kids yet. Anyway, here is a pic of my cute hair. (I was really tired when I took this photo so I might look pissed but I wasn't, I promise)

Socially Infertile

Like you all know, I made the insane choice of making my issues with fertility very public. I would not suggest this to anyone. The pros are that you don't have to hide anything. You don't have to wear a fake smile all the time. Plus I'm a firm believer sharing a real life not just the "good news minutes".
Now onto the cons... I never thought it would lead to losing friends. I admit I have been avoiding social gatherings because it truly breaks my heart to sit around and talk about babies, pregnancies, etc. It's seams to be the topic of choice among women in their 20's. Because I don't want to ask people to not talk about the most exciting thing in their life, I just avoid them completely. I am happy for my friends but there are times it kills me and I end up taking bathroom breaks to cry out the frustration. As I mentioned in the last post this month has been hard. If avoiding people makes me "selfish, bratty, and in need of pulling the stick out of my head that's shoved up my ass", then so be it. I think of it more as self preservation. I thought, of all people, my friends would understand.

I love this Commercial!!!

Snow makes me believe in magic.

So you know how I wished for life to be boring? Well unlike all my other wishes this one came true. Life is so funny that way. Now that I don't need the current classes I'm taking I caught in this moral battle of continuing to try. I am transferring schools so I don't need to keep up my grades and I already wasted the money. It's hard to be motivated to do something so useless (especially when it's chemistry) but I don't know if I'm capable of getting an F.

I'm back on the job front looking for work. I don't want a seasonal position, preferably something that will continue through next year. Please keep me posted on anything that comes up that I can work without wanting to pluck my eyes out.

I'm thinking about joining a gym. There is something about watching little miss perky butt run next to me that makes me work a lot harder.



I was going to stop posting about the joys of having the uterus from hell but since everyone knows, the damage is already done. Here is the story of my life...


It's crazy because I am using a fertility monitor that tells me exactly when I ovulate and yet I don't even get the chance to miscarry again. It's awesome isn't it? Along with the frustration we just passed due date #2. That was a bundle full of sunshine to go through.
Unfortunately I now realize when people start a family it suddenly gives them a baby curfew. That hasn't been helping much in getting over the blues. Our social life is not dead yet but it has taken many blows the last few years. Have I mentioned I'm really bored?
I'm looking into things to make my life more exciting. I don't have a lot of money and not a lot of willing friends but I'll let you know what I come up with. If you have any suggestions please pass them on.

P.S. My heart goes out to all of you who have lost loved ones lately. You are definitely in my prayers. Stay strong and hopeful.

Red

Did you know redheads are going extinct? It's a very recessive trait.
In Australia they call redheads "rangas" as in orangutan.

I'm not sure if I love it yet. What do you think?