I guess after my ray of sunshine post the man upstairs brought on the rainstorms. Nothing huge has gone terribly wrong but when you're already fighting to survive a trial, the little stuff seems a lot bigger.
So here's how my week has gone:
Chemistry Test-50 forever long questions. I had to guess on a lot of them because I was running out of time. I'm afraid to hear my score.
Math Test- I already told you about that teacher. Her test are built to trick you. I did horrible.
One of my close friends announces she's pregnant. I'm really happy for them. I've also been crying all day.
What am I doing so wrong to not get a blessing that so many others get? It's hard for me to not take it personal. Is there a purpose to the suffering or is it all in the genetics? I don't know what to do or think. I wish I was stronger. I know so many other people that go through much worse things than this. It's just really starting to wear me down.
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I know how you feel. I am doing another round of Clomid right now hoping that this time will be it.... but its frustrating. I question why I am the one with problems out of my family members... and what i did to deserve this. I guess I am not very uplifting since I am in the same situation as you. I keep trying to tell myself it will get better and someday it will all be behind me.
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