Sunday, March 24, 2013

Surviving Infertility without Funding


In all my years of writing a giant theme in my life is INFERTILITY SUCKS.  Though this time around is not as discouraging because of my Noah baby.  He made me a mommy taking away the question, "Will I ever be a parent?"  I'd be lying if I said it still doesn't hurt.  It does.  Pregnancy announcements and baby bumps are all around me.  When the search for #2 is all I can think about it's hard not to notice infant paraphernalia around every corner.  I wish so bad that I could surprisingly get knocked up and grow a perfect little being inside of me.
 I'm not bitter about adoption.  I think it is beautiful but it is ridiculously expensive.  We have not seen any donations from the business donation letters.  NOT ONE.  We opened a new Facebook Page and posted a pic of my little man asking everyone we know to donate $5.  If we had 5000 people donate $5 we would reach our goal.  That seems doable right?  Unfortunately the majority of our friends wish us luck and say they would donate if they had the money.  Was $5 too much to ask?  I feel terrible asking for help.  The economy has crippled so many.  I just don't know what else to do.  If we can't raise the money, we will not be able to complete our family.  That rips my heart out.
Our story does come with some incredible angels who with very little were able to donate.  Also another amazing woman (that I've never met) who shares our profile on a weekly basis.  You are a God send and I will never be able to thank you enough.  
I just wish we had more help.  I am defeated and discouraged.
I am thankful for our friends who with games nights and good food volunteer to distract us from our trials.  Thank You.

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