Sorry again about the lack of post. My life has been very uneventful lately. I have formed a marital vow with the University and have since lost my soul to the sciences. Labor Day we did homework with only a small break when we went to a cute little lodge for a quick lunch with really cool dead purple bees.
To keep the readers interested I will address some random thoughts I have had the past month.
*I think it's stupid that America's Next Top Model is all about short girls this season. Please let us tall girls have something!!!! You were not built to be a model, give it up. Go be gymnast.
*My mom's side of the family has a lot of selfish jerks. So since my Grandpa died they have started emptying the house which might as well be world war 3. Everyone is fighting over what they get. My grandparents weren't rich so it's just random stuff. It's just stuff!!!!!
*My puppy rebelled and took it out on Adam's GI Joes. Luckily there were only a few casualties.*The President talked to school aged kids and was called the next Hitler. That was pretty funny. Adam had some fun dealing with that this week.
*I don't understand soda purists, you know those who get offended if you offer them a diet soda. Does it taste like vomit or is it that you are too hard to drink something with the word diet on it. I don't care if you like the taste of regular soda better that's cool, just don't act like I killed your kitten if all I have in my house is diet.
*The biggest turn off in the world is the word B-A-B-Y. You may picture it as this amazingly romantic time, trying to make a baby. Well we have been trying every month for almost 2 years. The magic has been killed, buried, dug up, smacked a few more times, and buried again. It's an incredibly stressful topic and when ovulation happens the last thing I want to do is jump into the throws of passion. If anyone has any suggestions on how to make this chore less award please comment. ( don't get me wrong, things are great when it's not the baby making time of the month, sorry that's probably too much information )
*So we just moved into this new ward. (for those of you who aren't Mormon or from Utah a ward is just the group you go to church with) Anyway I love it because it is made up of mostly Grandparents. There are less young couples which in turn means less baby announcements. Then I get a calling. (nonmembers a calling is my contribution to running the church) I get called to primary. So instead of hanging out with the grandma's I get to go home in tears every Sunday after being with the all cute little kids. To add insult to injury almost all of the other leaders have babies. It breaks my heart. I'm not sure how long I'll stick it out because before this things were getting better. It turns out it still hurts a lot.
3 comments:
I love the comment about America's Next...Top...Model...(said in the way Tyra says it).
I am at an awkward height. Im 5'7 1/2" tall. Where does that leave me? Im too tall to be a gymnast, too short to be a model (not that I would be either if I were shorter or taller. Not flexible to be a gynmast and too fat to be a model. But I digress...)
Anywhoodles...can I just give you a hug about being called to primary? There is nothing I can say or do to make it better, but I am really good at hugs :)
Your doggie must be so much fun!
And, are those really bees? They are amazing looking! Do you think they have been radiated in Tooele? lol...
Wayne and I are so glad not to be there for Anderson WW3...so sad that they will probably never speak to each other again. I hope I am wrong about that.
And that sandwich in the pic made me so hungry!!
Love you both! A Terra
So I've been out of the blogging world for a good 3 months & I'm trying to catch up.
You know that I know what's it's like to want something so bad that it's CONSTANTLY on your mind. It seems like everyone else that wants it, it just happens in a snap. Every month the disappointment grows and multiplies from the previos month. Something that should be fun, romantic, pleasurable...seems like work. And no matter what anyone says, good advice or bad, it's always easier said than done.
Having said that, you will always have those feelings until you have a baby in your arms. I don't know what to say to help make you feel any better. But when I was in your shoes, it finally worked out when I stopped worrying about me and focused my worrying energy on loved ones that had trials bigger than mine. It's not easy, but instead of dwelling on what wasn't happening for me, I had to think of what was.
I don't know Cass, I just know that things will work out eventually. And when they do, that baby will be your whole life and the only thing you talk about, think about, worry about, etc.
More people than you know are going through a similar trial/trials. Just keep your head up and remember how blessed you are. One day you'll look back & realize it was such a short time in your life but because of that hard time, it will make you that much more grateful for what you have.
I hope I didn't offend in any way, I know it's hard. Just know you are extremely loved!!
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